Beset

It finally happened.  My will was broken by my usual illness of aching legs and a sore throat.  It happens.  I missed the puking, I missed the colds, I missed the running noses.  I can’t swallow on one half of my throat.  The other half is fine.

I’ve been cutting all my food in half.

The marking period has ended, with the semester ending as well.  MAP testing starts tomorrow which brings anxiety and such.  I’ve taken some big risks this year with my reading curriculum and I hope they pan out.  If not, it’ll be back to last year’s methods – and those are a drag.

Assessments are a drag, too.

I wish I just had a handful of kids I could take on hikes every day and we could come inside after the AM and do some reading and math.  Math is pretty fun.

I have to start Grad School this summer to be ready for my license renewal and I am pretty sure I have to take a bunch of reading classes, which is depressing because I’d really rather get a Masters in Math Instruction which kids find so much more confusing.  We’ll see what I can do.

I am going nuts.  I thought by now I’d find time to be involved with some local theaters, and I haven’t been able to do that yet.  Too much to do at work.  Thankfully, I have the Story Spinners to be a part of but I really miss the excitement of Improv and doing plays.  I should have done a play with my class this year, but it’s a bit late for that.

C’est la Vie.

Star Wars – A Spaghetti Post

A spaghetti post is when you’re throwing it all against the wall to see if it sticks. Stream of consciousness bits and pieces, right?

Anyway.  Sam went and saw Star Wars again last night for her work party and I stayed home with the kids.  We watched a Miyazaki movie and I was happy Zach enjoyed it – he’s going to be a movie-phile like me, I can feel it.  What fun.  There’s so many movies I want to show him, but he’s too young yet.

I’ve seen Star Wars twice, and I’d see it again, because it was a heckuva lot of fun. It’s not perfect, no, but it’s a lot of fun to watch and I really like to have fun at the movies.  I was talking to a friend on Facebook about “The Revenant” which I think I’d like to see, but it looks too serious for my tastes.  I can’t handle movies like that very often.

Which reminds me on thoughts on Facebook, which seems to be a polarizing topic for some. It’s become this background to life as usual, and I think it’s just great. Facebook is like a big supermarket where I’m bumping into people I’ve not seen for a while.  I really like a lot of my Facebook friends, but I never get to see them.

Anyway, there’s still people on Facebook who haven’t seen Star Wars and seem to be all “Ha, I’ve never seen Star Wars – I don’t care!  No Star Wars for me!” which is silly.  First of all, man that was a fun movie. But not everyone cares for Space Opera, so I understand.  Secondly – no one cares that you don’t care!  I don’t sit on Facebook or whatever and complain about how boring football season is.  I ignore it and move on.

Lastly, I am excited that Peridot is officially a Crystal Gem. Her standing up to Yellow Diamond was the pinnacle of her character for me.

The First

Last night did not treat me well.  Despite abstaining from any revelry, I am exhausted today.  Instead of fun and drink, anxiety and insomnia struck me with their terrible, terrible hands.  I’m trying not to let my anxiety creep up on me, but it’s pretty hard to do.  Not much sleep.

Today is the first day of the year, Sam and I have been cleaning the house thoroughly, and it still is messy.  Maybe 2016 is the year we say to heck with it, and let it fall apart.

It is a slow start to a new year.  I love the clean break of the year beginning, and the possibilities awaiting.  I’ve got a lot going on this year, but I’m most excited to have a summer off again.  To go camping and spend the weekdays doing whatever we want to do – it’s going to be quite a lot of fun.

I’ve not made any resolutions.  I thought about trying to work out every day again, but I’m too sleepy to start today.  I think the main thing I’d like to do is be better at planning ahead.  I’m getting there bit by bit at work and such, but it can always be better.  If I’d planned ahead, for example, I wouldn’t be thinking of resolutions on New Year’s Day.  Maybe I would have a planner already!  Instead, I spent a long time today organizing Hot Wheels cars.

Today brought with it black-eyed peas and collard greens.  It turned out pretty well – the beans didn’t really thicken up as I’d like them to, but it was a bowl of hot porky goodness.  It better do the trick this year.  I need to retire early before Iceland melts and there’s nothing to see there.

The Last

A new year tomorrow.  This year has been unique – we’ve been able to stay in one home for the whole of it, with no danger of being forced out.  So that’s been nice.  There’s some pretty big stuff coming in 2016 for us as well, which I’ll get into next year (see what I did there).

I think the word best describing my 2015 has been asleep.  That’s how I’ve felt through much of it, with all it’s trainings and assignments – it’s felt as though I’ve been asleep.  I’d like very much to wake up, but it’s hard to do.  This hasn’t been a particularly restful break.

It has been a break though. It’s been two weeks of nothing too terribly important to be done, and that’s been nice.  I’m excited to see my students on Monday, but I’m not excited for the tidal wave of paperwork and nonsense it brings.  If I could come in each day and be a teacher, that would be very nice.  There is far too much getting in the way.

After break, we are going to have research and book reports and Rube Goldberg Devices, so that will be nice.  I do love my school.

Christmas was a large affair again, and I got some terrific gifts this year.  A nice watch, which I have wanted for years.  Smiles from my wife and kids.  A tumbling composter – I am so excited to be able to compost the vegetable peelings again, it’s probably not understood by normal humans.  All the rotten veggies from the fridge have tumbled already!

I need to find some brown to shove in, but I think we’ll have a good batch brewing away in no time.

Sam got an iPad, which has seen most of its use by Zachary.  Zachary has gotten a 3DS which has seen most of its use by Sam and myself, so it all evens out.  Lucy has been slowly breaking everything she’s gotten.

Snowshoes were one of her favorite new items, a gift from Aunt Missy.  They have seen heavy use now that the snow has finally fallen.  I am debating saving my Christmas money or using it to buy my own pair.  It’s exciting that Lucy loves being outside.

And I love being outside.  It is continuing to be a struggle working indoors all day, and having a challenge getting the kids outside more often.  It’ll be harder since the populace is allergic to cold.

Tomorrow I am making bean soup and collard greens.  Mom would be proud.